A Lesson in Every Situation

Seems I've been doing a lot of blogging lately. I don't know if anyone even reads these things anymore, but it helps so I'm going to keep at it. Today's post is more about personal reflection and I'm only sharing it here so that maybe others will read this and it'll help them too. As the title says, there's a lesson in every situation. 

Preface: 

It's important to note before we go even further, my stance on God and religion. First off, I don't believe in religion. What you'll find out about me is that I am living every day like it's a learning experience. However, I don't deny the existence of God. There's been way too many blessings occur for me to believe otherwise. That's not to say I don't have multiple upon multiple questions every day. Maybe God is the belief and not the human form many of us imagine when we talk about "Him". One of the many questions, lol. That said, my relationship with all of that is more spiritual than literal. I've read the bible numerous times, both cover to cover and did the "Bible in a Year." I'll be honest, it frustrated me. Because the God I do believe in, I can't relate that to what's written in the bible. At least not in the way it's been taught to me. Maybe we're meant to be uncomfortable, but reading the bible made me want to give up on life, so I don't do that full on anymore. Maybe some scriptures here and there, but yeah. 

There's a point to me sharing that; if you've gotten this far, thank you. 

Purpose:

Now that I got all that out of the way, let's continue. Another thing I believe in is purpose. I believe that we are here for a reason, even if some times that reason frustrates me and some days has me questioning, "what's the point?" As I've talked about before, I also believe people are placed in our lives for a reason. That's where today's post comes into play. 

I'm 41 years old, 42 in April. I've lived the better part of my life being hurt by those who walk out of my life. Most of the time, it's because of something I did or didn't do, and those chose to leave. Which is fine. I never want someone to pretend to be my friend or loved one. There's no point in that. But the sting of being ghosted will forever alter my mindset. These days I find joy in sitting at home and avoiding people in real life. Which is funny since I'm also going to school for my Master's to teach Elementary Education. Kind of hard to avoid people in that line of work. But, as far as making lifelong friends...I can't say I believe in that anymore. 

Up until this year I've lived life waiting for the second shoe to drop when it comes to my friendships. It's happened WAY too many times where someone will act like my best friend one day, only for me to wake up the next and they've ghosted me, as in complete cut off. Those never made sense to me. But, that's their right to do whatever best suits them. So for the longest time I was friendly with people but lately haven't let anyone get to close. I really don't want to be like that because that's not me. So, I'm working on a mindset shift. 

Mindset Shift:

The people in my life right now are wonderful people. They are supportive and better yet, let me support them. There is a mutual respect between those friends I have in my life, and sometimes we step on each others toes, but that's to be expected every now and then. Making mistakes is how we grow. So it's not fair to those people for me to sit here and be on edge thinking the next day I'll wake up to them erased from my life. I'm an empath, I've said this before, I feel what others feel. That also means that when the reality occurs and we've become friends, that means I care for that person. They become someone I think about when I'm out shopping and see something they like...(my friend Brandi is probably sick of me sending her Snoopy things lol), or thinking of them when life happens. 

I want to stop living my life waiting for the next shoe to drop. Let it drop. We'll all be okay. Every situation holds a lesson. Bring on the lessons.